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Where did I start with my beliefs, faith, and religion?
I started from having no religion
I was not forced to go to church.
I got lucky because my mother had no car and no way to get me to the church when I was a toddler. Later in life after getting a car she could drive I still was not forced to go to church.
One day a friend told me the name of Satan.
Sometime after that, I began to wander around online
I would up in Joy of Satan - At this time I did not know of their hidden backstory. You can google it. I will not be getting into that story here.
At the time of entering the site, I read every single page I could.
The joy of Satan opened my eyes to the 7 chakras along with Aura. I even heard about guardian spirits from them.
I have read all the pages on the Joy of Satan website. In doing so I have been more aware of the spiritual aspect of my being and the world around me. To be honest this was always there. It just grew from actually knowing about Aura and Chakras.
I was glad that I left satanism - I still do not know what made me leave and wonder from satanic faith to the next - My guess is I was still looking for the right place for me.
I stayed in Latvian satanism for a while until I saw they were really just atheists with a satanic theme.
All and all I got more and more people hating me trying to learn things.
I shared quotes from Lavey – I do not really know what he meant… thinking people would help me but instead I was brutally attacked for not knowing it and was stupid for even saying I do not understand.
That made me leave Satanism fully.
I am no stranger to the darkness as you can clearly see from my rough past.
Where did you go from leaving satanism?
I stayed silent until my ex-mentioned about a Sumerian deity named Enki. We got talking about the lost book of Enki
something told me to stay with that name.
Later my ex would mention about Egyptian deities and that is when I saw something and stayed with this pantheon. I felt right at home. I did not need to look elsewhere or to hunt in paganism or Wicca cultures.
Later I would meet my lover online who opened my eyes to these books, written by Alabaster Crowley.
My lover awakened me to the law of Thelma. I have read all thirteen holy books of Thelema.
The things have changed in me. My likes and emotional state.
During the past three years, I have slowly changed from liking some dark artwork. Gothic arts. Vampires mostly. I changed into liking more Positive energy photos such as nature, mermaids, elves, dragons, witches, magic and the like. The color theme I enjoy are the blue ones. Mystical photos.
I have changed from being lonely, alone, depressed, and bipolar depressed to having self- love, confidence and so much more. I reclaimed my power.
What has stayed the same?
Spiritual
freethinker
open minded
nature lover
hate crowds
sharing knowledge, peace, and love – just more apparent now than ever before
what exactly is at your core beliefs now?
What are you now?
Thelma
Egyptian Pantheon
love and light
sharing my truth to the world
Spiritual
Meditation
Chakras
Mantras
Aura
The Astral – the spirit world
doing the great work
being a lightworker
being a starseed
Recap
I had no religion wound up in spiritual satanism
read about chakras, aura, the astral, spirit guardians, meditation, and magic
I left JOS wound up in the church of satan, and the COL group on facebook
only to leave this religion
my ex-brought up The lost book of Enki which reunited me with it
I stayed with Enki until my ex-mentioned about Egyptian Pantheon
I felt at home with the Egyptian Deities
I met my lover who opened my eyes to Thelma and the books Aleister Crowley had written
I grew more and more into being a lightworker, starseed
I now pass on my truth and love to the world
I changed from darkness into light
Throughout my years I have read, read, and watched video blogs on spiritual subjects. Trying to open my mind more and more. Note I did this work all on my own. You must do the work yourself. I learned that the hard way. I had a person ask for my help but did not want to do the work themselves…
Things I have felt
The energy around me – this is hard for me to explain… I get this sensation of a weight on my back that tells me it is evil. If I get this warm sensation through my body then I know my guardian or a god I follow is near me.
I have felt hatred towards me – my heart chakra would hurt like hell.
Have I seen anything with my third eye?
Yes
Warcraft images if I played for way too long
I have seen faces
I have seen deities that I called upon
Skulls
Reaper
reptilian
Aiwass
a dragon
other random images that change rapidly
evil entities that tried to attack me but could not even reach me
have you had any dreams with deities?
I have had an encounter
three times to be exact let's just say this is only meant for me to know
this also includes visions – not just dreams
where are you on the scale of things?
Beginner to an expert?
Intermediate
I have not reach godhead, yet
I am no expert yet. I have much left to learn
I have not astral project or had a lucid dream
my journey has taken me 8, 9, or 10 years to get to where I am now.
Nothing happens right away
it is a long arduous journey
What are your goals now?
Expanding my knowledge so I can help more people
I am doing the great work and I am blessed while I am doing it
My mission is to bring spiritual awareness and love to everyone
Come and follow me and my sacred way and mystical way
There is nothing better than love and freedom and no boundaries
Yea, it is flattering to be followed by the right people
I am a lightworker I am a starseed
I am the priestess to the lovely star Nuit
Love is my name and liberation is my goal
Come and follow me my divine way and mystical way
For I am a Lightworker
For I am a starseed
I am a priestess to the lovely star Nuit
My light, my fire is a beacon of love and of hope and of courage and strength and power
My light is guiding you back to the love and the magic.
I am doing the great work
My mission is to bring spiritual awareness and love to everyone
Come and follow me in my sacred way and mystical way
There is nothing better than love and freedom and no boundaries
Aye it is flattering to be followed by the right people
I am a lightworker I am a starseed
I am the priestess to the lovely star Nuit
Love is my name and liberation is my goal
Come and follow me in my holy way and mystical way
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