A small window into my life January 21 2026... volume 13
- amarathyst

- Jan 31
- 2 min read
This window tells the story of someone living in a house that is no longer safe, while trying to navigate systems that move slowly and imprecisely. 🌫️ Personal safety steadily eroded as outside processes failed to keep pace.
Over time, a pattern of sexual harassment and assault by a household member became clear: staring, whispered sexual comments, blocking exits in the past, and eventually non-consensual touch in public. 🚨 Each incident increased discomfort and fear. Attempts to ignore or minimize the behavior became survival strategies rather than signs of safety. Even when illness entered the picture, the behavior did not stop—it adapted. 🧠
Alongside this, coercive control tightened. Medical anxiety and cancer treatments were used to require constant accompaniment, turning care into obligation and movement into restriction. ⛓️ The mother, overwhelmed by illness, finances, and caregiving, alternated between minimization and fear. At one point, even she expressed being afraid to open a door after witnessing suspicious behavior, confirming that the sense of danger was not imagined. 😟
At the same time, a disability claim with SSA unfolded under severe stress. Autism was listed, and signs such as confusion and processing difficulty were present, but the system did not fully evaluate functional impact. 🧩 What was described as a “mental exam” turned out to be only a payee-capacity screen, not a true mental consultative examination. Other assessments commonly used in autism cases were never given. 📄 A third-party function report was completed, but differences between responses reflected masking, overwhelm, and perspective gaps rather than dishonesty. 🔍
Despite delayed mail, illness in the household, and lack of support, the appeal window remains open. ⏳ Key dates are known, and documentation exists in journal form, even without perfect timelines. The core through-line of this window is consistent: growing threat, constrained movement, overwhelmed support, and an incomplete evaluation, simply reflecting the reality contained here without judgment or resolution. ⚖️


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