part 1
understanding why the dark night of the soul happened in the first place
to answer this
i fell out of love
i lost the light of my life
i ran away
i said i was doubting
i created this false fantasy
i had broken up
part 2
the dark night of the soul
it occurred because i broken up with a part of my soul
i lost the light of my life
then came pain
came grieving
i felt incomplete
i was missing something
i know i heard when people see their other soul in another person
they automatically know
i had not known this until after he was gone out of my life
only then did i see this
only then did i accept this
i am now starting to accept my higher self... what she means to me... and what it means to say i have the light of my life back in my life
part 3
why do you feel complete now?
i returned to what i was before i lost the light of my life
without him i was missing a huge part of my self
or so it felt like
with him back in my heart
i feel whole
i feel complete again
part 4
i am starting to accept my higher self...
i always ran away from my past life
i doubted that i was her
she was all-powerful
her light is so grand
then there was me... the lost girl who cant see her own light for it had gone out years ago
my child form saying i lost my light
born in darkness
born in hell
i was greatly depressed back then
now that i have this light back in my life
i feel more like myself again
i feel whole
i feel complete
the wound is no more
part 5
seeing my higher self for what it really is
it now makes more sense of the things i went through
why i doubted
why i ran
it all makes sense
i am a warrior goddess
trying to find herself again
only to end in doubt and denial until
a pain occurred
through that pain i started to see the real signs
from before i failed to see because i already felt whole
so of course i would deny the soulmate bond
your not him
i am complete already
then came broken up
then came oh my... so what they said was true
that another person does complete you
how could i see this until only after i had lost you
oh my.. what have i done...
so much sadness
so much pain
this abyss
will it ever end?
a year later and somehow this did end
i have no idea why it stopped
can two people i know
help me manifest this change, this healing?
it is possible
or is it because my soul was like
you endured long enough
now go back to the full light of your soul
i shall may never know the whole story
only assumptions will have to do...
i have video recordings of me talking about this
i just needed to write things out
i know i missed lots of stuff or was not very clear
so here is a new take on what i went through
the text form - i meant
the videos came first
followed by this blog post
EP 1 - my friend only EP 2 - on YouTube
EP 3 - on YouTube
EP 4 - my friend only
EP 5 - this blog post
the friends only is because its not suited for youtube
i might be able to upload EP 4 on YouTube but only one message did not send to my friend
so i am trying to figure out how to recover the failed to send message
EP 2
EP 3
i need to upload it what episode 3???