after that harsh encounter
i feel betrayed
he called himself my friend yet tore me apart
with his petty insults
he fed on my insecurities
the demon knew how to attack me
and knew when and where
sure he made valid points
but to say I am cursed because of such and such
is well ludicrous
he attacked my core
he attacked my beliefs
he attacked what I follow
says he was giving me facts
said he was trying to help me
a real friend would not insult you
a real friend would speak gentle and kind
not harsh and egomaniac like
he said I was attacking him
all I did was tell him hey I did not appreciate this
how he said things
I said he was lying about me being cursed
among other things
to him, I was insulting him
so he insulted me right back
I knew he was not my real friend
a real friend would never cause you harm
not like how harmed me
not like how he spoke to me
said he was neutral but he was not
he used my horrid past mistakes as a backbone to pick me apart
to say my present is hauled because of the fighting I do
there are no trolls
I do not surround myself with haters
like he thinks I do
the only fighting i do
and i do not even consider it as fighting
would be
exposing demonic thinking
exposing demonic behavior
i expose false light
i bring my higher wisdom
yet he says i am full of shit
he did not use those exact words but basically his insult said it for him
he never did like my BFF
even before discord was created
he hated that my BFF was flirty with me
he hated the dirty jokes we lay on each other
he hated how open we both were
he saw my BFF was a threat
said he was only there for sex and not what I offered spiritually
I kept telling this prick that my BFF is not the problem
but he was like, not him the others
then today he went back and said the exact same thing but this time admitting that my BFF is the problem
you can see he continued to change his stories and lie to my face
he tried to manipulate the truth
every time I would ask
who is doing this
he would only mention people of the discord server
but would never give me their usernames
something fishy was going on
I felt something was off with him
when I would ask who is he talking about but would never give me any details other than its the discord people, who only use you for sex
the other thing I noticed was off is when he said he loves to do blasphemy
love is bad and should not do while sex is a good thing to do because its blasphemy against the bible
or something fucked up like that
he talked about sex magic only but is against love
so your guess is as good as mine on what he actually said and how he said it
I have forgotten it since he was so toxic
the last time I met someone who was into that sort of thing
their aura was dirty
their energy was off
we did not get along
they saw my light and wanted nothing to do with me
they spoke about my aura and candle warmth or something like that
when I tried to ask to go deeper into that subject
they would not go any further
they left the conversation
that is when I noticed me and these blasphemy people will never get along
I hate their energy and they hate mine
simple as that
during the encounter when he came out of the blue
to tell me I am cursed and I need to watch out
the first time sound
I felt something was off
I felt he is not the same person I had met in 2019
before he vanished on me the first time around
I tried to hear him out but I felt my ego was under attack
like he has to be full of shit, right?
Me cursed?
During the entire time of that conversation, I was apprehensive
then again I could barely get to say anything since he was laying it into me
saying he was neutral but he still attacked me
I felt threatened by his words
during the second encounter
after I unblocked to him to tell him
hey buddy I did not appreciate what you did
you lied to my face about everything you said
none of it true!
You only see my past
you use to love me confiding in you and now it only brings me pain
I gave you plenty of opportunities to strike a conversation up with me
but now you do not even compliment my energies or say I look awesome or cute
you use to and now I get nothing
so fuck you
I can see I am not wanted by you
I can see I am not welcomed in your life
and guess what his response was?
To destroy my core
to spit in my face
to attack me because he said I lied to his face with my claims
he said everything he was telling me was facts even these new insults he gave me were facts
I can now clearly feel and see his energy for was it truly is
he is dark and cruel
I tried to get him to stop harassing me with no luck
stop your lies
stop hurting me
he continued on and on
until I mentioned back in 2019 I wanted to date you
then he calmed down with his insults and saying I am cursed
only to slowly slide in one last I am cursed before he went on with
actual details on how I am
since he insulted me
I would say fuck you, go to hell ETC
since he was really pissing me off
I would also call him an idiot
for not seeing my blessings and my happiness
he insulted me first so I insulted him right back
fair is only fair
and no I did not even insult him with my first message
but he said I attacked him
how in the world did I attack him by what I said… I will never know
here is the actual message I sent to him which started the tear me apart feasting on my soul
"I really dislike you judging me the way you did. Obvously you saw only the past and not the present. You told me that you loved me confiding in you now you dont. Nkw your laying false claims on me and i hate you for it. You say imever gave you conversation opotunities i call BS. You cant see my blessings then shame on you. Your stuck in the past then again i confided in you because yku told me you loved it... Now it just brought me nothing but problems with me and you...
I can see im not welcomed in your life
Im no longer apreciated by you
Your not the same person i once knew
I thought you were hacked so i blocked you
As i got my thoughts from our harsh interaction we had last
What you did was uncalled for
Fucking ask me questions before falsly acusing me of things that is not even true
Oh dont worry i have more things to say on our last conversation
Fuck, you use to conpliment me on my energies
Like idk im more positive
Now you say nothing to me
Who are you and what have you done with the person i met back in 2019!”
~Mystic Lux Fae
ok maybe that last sentence was the ticking time bomb…
well I felt he is not the same person so I assumed he was hacked
he never mentioned I was cursed back when we first met nor his blasphemy acts
none of that was brought to my attention until he reappeared the second time around…
since he vanished on me for basically a year
yeah of course I would wonder, “who are you and what have you done with the real james”
from his point of view
he thinks my goal in life is to be famous
to speak to the masses
to have thousands of dollars fly into my pocket by magic and blessings
(law of attraction)
he says I need to be in some temple on a pedestal and have millions of people worship me
none of those are my goals
I told him, sorry that is not my goal
he left the conversation and I blocked him in the same day
today, I can now see a black mass
this black shadow person
he is that
I see this with my third eye
he insulted me claiming that my third eye is not opened and can not open 200 eyes
fuck him, I have helped people and he goes
what man
who are they
I see no one commenting
so your a 1 dimensional being who thinks she knows what is going on but clearly doesn't
she is stupid
she is blind
she is crazy
Ending Notes:
why does he think you are cursed?
Where did all of this begin?
I felt something was very off when out of the blue
he came at me with me being cursed
only because I kept telling him no, not yet, it was postponed
no more news
he saw me as being unlucky and have no power
apparently I had no power, energy, or light the entire time of knowing him
since he mentioned I was extremely unlucky when I first met him
im like… ook???
I was a different person back then
I had more trolls – sure
VS now I have like NONE
sure I get the bot people asking to go to this website for sex
but they are bots and not real
he thinks because I had this happen TWICE I am cursed still and is part of the problem
I also ranted about why I left Thelma because this person was a problem… except that was more of an explaining post and joking than an angry post – idk if he counts that as part of my curse problem or not
make that he sees only the negative events of my life
note he has been gone for 3 to 6 months before he vanished again for 3 months
then he came at me with I am cursed
says he is my friend but he never checked in with me
claims he was busy
blames the virus for being offline more
says im addicted to social media and spend too much energy on there
if anything he has blasphemy what I do, believe in, and attacked me on multiple levels
he is nothing but a con and a liar
still today thinks I am in the wrong for saying what I have said about him
how else would you talk about a person who says your cursed with no explanation
only the second time around does he begin to tell you how you are cursed
and your like
but things happen for a reason
and your being absurd with saying I am cursed because of certain aspects of my life
he also trolls the posts I have shared and personally written and shared on instagram
saying they are “cheap”
and some other harsh insult
I share what I believe in
even if later in life I no longer believe the words
the meaning has changed as I evolve
what it means to you will be different to me
what it means to you in the present day will maybe mean something different in life
it is only a glimpse to my spiritual insight
yet he had the balls to tear me down
based on what I write and share
the kicker is
he claims to be on my website
and reads the posts
but he never comments on ANYTHING
be it on Instagram, YT, or my website
yet has the nerve to brutally insult and attack me
with but you have no comments and no views
who is watching that dosnt want sex from you?
Ok so me and one random person watches only
hahaha your cursed because you cant grow your accounts
yet you claim to want to get your message to the people but you cant even do that
then why are you even on my stuff for?
when you gave all of your insults and your real thoughts about me
it shows your a hater
it shows your fake
I think I got most of his insults on the table now
how I see it vs how he sees it as
if I missed something
well its been recorded and posted in another video
if you want to see the entire conversation its in a separate video
this is what started it all
part 1 - sharing my thoughts part 1 of - ???
part 2 - proving him wrong by showing every post on my Instagram. how many likes and plays do i have per post
part 3 - showing the first encounter which leads me to tell him, i did not appreciate your actions towards me - to him ripping me apart... to me exposing him all over again lol
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