Do I need to be aggressive
To be in conversation
To make friends
The people I thought were my friends
They abandoned me
They ignored me
One no longer checks their messages
Why does this keep happening to me
Losing friends and can't meet new people
this remains in my head
i notice that i am nothing more than an outcast
no one talks to me now - hardly
what changed?
am i doing something wrong?
the only thing changed was
i went from being a satanic person to an angel person
even when i was a satanic person
i had a couple of people i talked with
now after i destroyed my satanic energy
i have no one i talk to now
barely anyone approaches me these days
why?
I think its because they don't understand me
they don't understand the posts I share
my energy is not off-putting so I can't really comment on that
sorry
if people do approach me
they give me the creeps
with their strange messages
one guy tried to convert me
the same guy came back and said I was a destiny child of this god
the same creepy energy was felt
another person wasted my time
they didn't really want to talk to me
they only messaged me because I shared something
just to ask me if I was having issues with Youtube
not to respond to what i just shared
the other day he asked me how i was
when I told them I was getting creepy messages they assumed it was porno messages
I said no
they asked me what was sent
I told him
he just sent a hahaha message and I never heard from them again
so I know he is ignoring me and went completely fake
All at the same time, wasting my time
the last person sent me haunted photos of places and ask me to do something and I told them idk what you want from me so I said I feel evil
they sent me more photos and I am like yeah this is not going anywhere better block this creepy guy
the photos were uncomfortable in energy so I had to block this person from draining me
the only last person that sent me a message was asking me to call this number or to join their community in order for me to seek out help
you know how psychic promote themselves by asking you to call this number for a fee
yeah one of those types of messages
the energy also creeped me out so I blocked them
these were the most recent events
in the last three years
I had men chase me
I had people try to use me
I had trolls
more and more people went fake on me and left me
now, here I am with only two friends I talk with
out of everyone i lost or encountered
so within a hundred people over the last three years
have I tried meeting new people?
Yes
I see those posts where you leave your name and if the people like your energy they will add you
I tried making my own posts too
nothing works
and so I question my existence
why am I alone
why do other people have it easier and have no problems meeting new people
but when it came to me… I can not find anyone who would talk to me
have I tried to talk to other people?
Yes and they leave no response back
or if we do get to the friendship they stabbed me in my back and leave me for no reason
even now after all these years
knowing I changed from human to something more
everyone left me
everyone abandoned me
I need to not question this anymore and yet I find myself doing that from time to time
I know I'm probably not the only one who has gone through a journey like this
losing everyone around you
can not make new friends even when you try
so you are left with doubt in your heart
you are left with depression
you hate being alone and yet here you are
yes I learned to stand on my feet and to see red flags and all of that
as to why you are alone in the first place
is it because I still have not found myself and that is why I can not make friends or to keep them?
Maybe
it's possible
people say
what is any of this teaching you
i already learned to stand on my own feet and to keep going pick yourself back up and keep soldier on
trust no one because people are fake and mean
energy lies
actions speak louder than anything
trust is earned
i am still searching for my soul tribe
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