Time grows and Lingers but never Frozen

🌙 Four Years Later — The Echo of Everything That Changed

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🌌 Introduction — A Journey Through Time

Some journeys leave their footprints before you even notice them.

Some years whisper truths you cannot yet understand, and some losses shape the path before the first step is taken.

This is a reflection of four years — a journey through sparks, silence, collapse, and reawakening.

It is a story not just of what was lost, but of what quietly endured, waiting for the right moment to ignite.

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🔮 2020 → 2023 — Sparks, Silence, and Becoming

One project led to another.

The days blurred into new ideas, experiments, and worlds I tried to build.

Progress came with noise, and noise came with distraction.

Music fell silent, but the pulse of creativity never left.

It was waiting for a new form — a new vessel.

Then came VTubing — a spark in the darkness.

Avatars, stories, characters — reflections of fragments of my soul.

Each one a small step along the path that would lead me here.

Later, I discovered Unreal Engine — a way to bring them fully into the worlds I imagined.

And yet, just as vision met reality, the crash came.

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💥 2024 — The Collapse

The Crash of 2024 — the year everything fell apart.

Files. Projects. Archives. Music. Memories.

For a while, there was only silence.

A strange, heavy quiet where beginnings felt impossible.

And yet, even in the rubble, the ember of creation waited.

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✨ 2025 — Reawakening and Reflection

And now, looking back, I see the journey as a single thread.

2020’s sparks, 2023’s experiments, 2024’s collapse — all of it led here.

My blog evolved alongside me — from chaos to rediscovery.

Every iteration marked a version of who I’ve become.

Every failure and breakthrough was a step along the path of reawakening.

I’ve moved from “love everyone, even those who hurt you,”

to stumbling in darkness searching for roots,

to becoming a light being, rediscovering my cosmic self —

a galactic federation starseed of many forms.

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🌠 Dreams and Tomorrows

A dream, you say?

Rare, yes — but always welcome.

Each dream, no matter how faint, reminds me that the journey continues.

That even in quiet moments, hope lives.

And sometimes… that is enough. 🌙

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🌌 Conclusion — The Thread Continues

Four years have passed, but the journey never truly ends.

Every whisper of 2020 still resonates in 2025.

Every collapse, every spark, every quiet moment contributes to the becoming of who I am.

This is not an ending — it is a continuation.

A reminder that even when life resets, creativity survives, light returns, and the soul remembers its infinite path.

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✍️ Written by Neser’en’kar

October 2025 — Reflection Series

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