the current emotions that are running through my mind...
call me a poet
call me a storyteller
waking up from deep slumber to see my person nightmares have come true
i now understand the pain and trauma i have been through
why it all happened
now i must learn to rise above it and not make the same mistakes
begone human monkey mind
as i evolve higher
rising into 5D and higher...
i use to glow brighter than this
where did my light go
was it extinguished
no?
just hidden at the depths of my soul
blinded by the deep sorrows of this life
come open my eyes once more
wipe those teas away
you were innocent
stop crying
stop torturing yourself
the nightmare is almost over
it is fading now
look to the heavens
lay your head against the glowing sunrays and feel that deep light flowing through you once again
i feel i do not dserve to rise after seeing the horros that i did all those lifetimes ago
i left you for another
i began to search
doing the open relationship of finding who was my one true
i searched endlessly and when i found you
i tried to search one last time to really know if you are my one true
i betrayed my moral that i hold dear to my heart
i was not loyal and broke my vow to you
i wept and weepts but you stayed talking to me
you didnt cuss me out like a human would
i broke my heart as i felt i betrayed you
i was an innocent girl who didn't know any better
as i lost all my higher self into this body and could no longer remember who and what i was
i could no longer know of the customs i left
i could no longer feel the culture in my heart
yet i followed the old laws of Enki even when i could not see it for what it was
i did not fail you
i failed myself by being manipulated as a human and lost my way
i lost my light
here you are again
guiding me
guiding me back into the light
i now see my human error
thankfully i never met any of these men physically
i can still be your friend but i can no longer want you in that way
i gave my heart to another man already before i fell in love with you
friends yes, lovers we can never be
and for that i am sorry
this is the long hard journey of finding your soulmate
you go through countless people
being intimate even with people only to divorce/ break up with them later UNTIL you find that one special soul and all the others leave your mind
you might be friends with an ex but you never want them ever again...
no hard feelings...?
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