i continue to feel like an ass when I share personal stories of my life
why?
I was told to keep that hidden from public view
why?
Because they are strangers and strangers would judge you and pick fights with you
thinking they are better than you and would bully you into submission
sure I kept telling the world about why my ex-friend was so horrible
and he always got mad at me for doing it too saying these people do not know me nor the whole story
they only know of the one side and not from both sides
he continued to think he was Mr right and I was always wrong
he even said I felt like I was always right and he was wrong
either way, that story he made up was false
he created an illusion
because of this…
I feel I should keep my mouth shut about personal matters that I have gone through
so I feel like an idiot telling the world my problems or what I have under gone
even if it turns out to be positive in the end
now to the reason why I shared any of my stories
to inspire you
to tell the world
HEY I won't sit here and take your crap sitting down
I will stand up for myself and defend myself when needed
I was sexually abused and harassed in other ways
yes this happened and did I allow the person to continue to hurt me?
No, I blocked the person and I moved on
do I continue to fall for people lies?
Yes, sadly
it's one of my flaws but if I allowed myself to never talk to people
I would never have found the gems that I did find
the point is
I continue to talk to people even though I was abused in the past
I do not let the scars get in my way even though it feels like my pain does get in my way
except…
that is not the case at all
in reality, I have few friends because people just don’t like me or think I am weird and strange
I am the alien here
an outcast
the odd one out
the black sheep of my family
my light is too much for people to bear so they run and hide from me
I don’t let that stop me from spreading my light and the truth I believe in
even if that truth changes as I evolve and say
hey, looking back I shared something that is a false light and I can see that now
I am changing my story and my mind as I grow
it is ok for change
I am evolving
my light guides me
my angel guides me
I see false light and expose it
to help others as I continue to evolve and empower myself
I won't let people continue to abuse me
I stand up for myself
I defend myself
I judge you based on YOUR actions
I do not judge people only their actions
if you feel evil you are probably evil
I only felt that after he raped me with his words and saw the same sunglasses profile picture
I connected the dots and felt his evil presence only after I already blocked him BEFORE I knew he was the same person
beyond that my empath abilities are noobish and are usually wrong… so I allow you to prove me otherwise
once, I met a person who was insane
said something that well.. in my eyes was sheeple and just made no sense
I kicked them out of my group because they told me to love EVERYONE including evil
I told a person that so you expect me to love evil too, no thanks
and the person said I don't expect you to love evil
and we got into an argument and I had no choice but to block this person
so I made the right call by not speaking to the person who I kicked out of my group
all I remember is they were wondering why I kicked them out of the group and told me my other member was in the wrong even though he was not they were basically out winning to me about being kicked out
they aura was very sheeple
the point is:
when you say something be SPECIFIC in your message rather than half or little information
I know I give you half the story but I expect you to research and think for yourselves
read through my lines of text
since some of my posts were from a trance if not all my words come from my trance of higher self and soul
I know most people who are on 3D or lower 4D can not see the bigger picture without me telling them
for this I say
then you are not ready to listen, to hear, or to even see it
when the time is right you will see the whole picture from your own eyes rather than expecting me to tell you
CONCLUSION:
I share my stories no matter what
even if my brain trails off into side topics along the way
I give all light
I give all my truth
I continue to empower others
by showing you I stand up for myself even though I continue to talk to people who lied to me and abuse me
if I never talk to anyone what is the point…
I let you prove me wrong about you
I judge you based on your actions not just your energy alone
I judge you on what you say, how you act, and how you treat me
ETC
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